God

I know its been awhile since I last had an entry..

I just came back from lunch and I was stopped by a Christian missionary on the way back to my room. I am not angry or anything, don't get me wrong.. I really just don't believe in believing in a religion just because I am scared of not going into heaven or just because there is impending doom and if I am not in a certain religion, I will not be saved...

I don't want to go into a religion because of that reason. But, I am glad she shared with me her faith and I appreciate that she tried her best to convince me. But, I just don't buy it. If I am going to initiate myself into a religion, it would be because I feel spiritually empty and not because I want to go to heaven or be saved or something similar for the sake of benefiting myself or "securing" a spot in heaven for myself.

I am sorry..but I think the Bible is a book written by men and whatever God or Jesus wanted to pass down, they have been lost in translation. I am not anti-Christ. I am just unconvinced of the whole religion.

feeling suffocated..miss my home..my family and friends..

miss saying what i want and know someone will understand.

Twisted Logic

I have been reading Perez Hilton almost everyday as a form of entertainment (very superficial I know, but well it's interesting. Haha..) and recently there was this disagreement with Perez and Miss California. Apparently, Miss California answered a question raised by Perez during the Miss America pageant and said that "a marriage should be between a man and a woman". The question was something along the line of whether Miss California thinks more states in America should approve gay marriages. 

Anyway, being a gay man, Perez immediately took offence, till today. But Miss California is also too much la. Seriously. In an interview with Rex Wockner (I don't really know who he is but here is his blog) she stated her opinion that gays are not born gays but their behaviors are developed over time. Erm....

I know essentially, in America, there is freedom of speech. You can say anything you want. But you don't have to be offensive.. I mean, you ARE Miss California right? Doesn't that mean that you should not make gay people feel like there is something wrong with them for not being "normal"? Seriously, what is she trying to do? I think she should just shut up and stop giving interviews. I mean, okay, you want to tell the whole world your opinion, but say that being gay is okay, as long as you don't have gay marriages. She is SO living in her own bubble!!! She should just dig a hole and crawl into it and not come out until gay marriages are approved in the future California. 

Anyway, I think having a religion is great, but sometimes, and I mean some times, it is questionable. People see what they want to see and hear what they want to hear. Whatever is written down in a book is always open to interpretation. Who knows what is God's real message? I would really like to know, too. 

By the way, I don't mean to offend anyone. Just to let you know, I have no religion. But I have attended church before, I have a sister and a boyfriend who are Buddhist, and friends who are Muslims and Hindus. I am not completely ignorant and I am not trying to offend anybody. This is what I think, that is all.

T..h...e  wea...ther issssssssss f.....u.....c.....k....ing.....H.....OOOO.....TTTTTTTTTTT........................

No excuses for this semester. I know I did badly. I know I should have gone for all my classes. I need to be a more responsible adult. I am turning 21. Need to act more adult like. 

Yeah right. 

I'm in love with Joe and Chet

To me, Joe Hisaichi is one of the best composers in this world. I am in love with him...even though he is a tad too old for me. Haha..

His songs are.. so moving... so full of feelings... :( 

Chet Baker too. I have no idea why, but I really love his voice and the way he played his trumpet. His songs are filled with quiet emotions. Even though some of his song have a happy title, the song is filled with sadness and loneliness. Frankly, it is quite depressing. Combined with the fact that his life was filled with drugs and violence, and he committed suicide. Sigh...But I still love him..his music I mean...

Sigh...Can't believe my second year is ending and I'm going to be a 3rd year student soon...so fast..........GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M TURNING 21!!!!!

I'll write a wish list soon. Haha..just in case people want to buy me presents! :D WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH........Oh yeah my birthday is still far away. But I keep dreaming about it. Sigh..some were nightmare too..So scary to be an adult.....I don't even look like I'm 20 lor...Sigh..........

Water Wings

Fine. Do whatever you like. I don't care. 

Life in Technicolour

This post has nothing to do with my life. Just wanted to rant about something I read.

Microsoft CEO Steve Ballmer apparently said recently that the difference between a mac and a pc is just $500 and a logo!!

That is not true at all! 

Think about ALLL the problems that comes with your pc that cost LOTS of money and NO guarantees!!!

1) VIRUSES - The pc doesn't even come with any free applications which can help you battle the viruses. These viruses probably exists because Microsoft ALLOWS them to. How irritating is that? Plus, to effectively battle the viruses, you need to buy an extra app which costs you more $$$ AND the protection DOESN'T even LAST. This means you have to CONTINUALLY SPEND to keep your pc VIRUS-FREE. 

2) JUNK APPS - A standard pc comes with loads of junk that you cannot even get rid of! Have you ever had a hard disk space problem and wanted to get rid of some apps which you will never use but SOME HOW, it doesn't show up in the Program Delete Application? How irritating is that? That you have to go extra miles to get what you want in your laptop?

3) SPEED and CRASHES - My macbook only crashed ONCE in its 1+ years of age, and that is because of the hard disk (not made by Apple). I can run many many many applications at one time and my mac will still give me the speed I need. I was doing video editing in Windows (installed in my macbook) and the number of times it suddenly crashed because I was running the internet at the same time was countless. So freaking irritating..........................

4) VISTA - I personally had not used this OS but judging from the reviews I got from friends and forums, I am kind of glad I am using a macbook with OS X. Using XP at home and with my macbook just really irritates me with the lack of speed and...other stuff. To the point that I just want to uninstall the OS. 

These are just some of the things I can think of. I used to be a pc user. But I am SO glad I bought a macbook instead in freshmen year. I am REALLY happy to be with my purchase and I am sure I will continue to be. Yes, buying a mac can be expensive. But compared to all the HEADACHE I would face using a pc, I can personally say that this is money well-spent. 

I guess once you yourself use a macbook, you would never turn back. Ever. 

This is

I added a new music player on the right! its on auto-on so turn it off if you don't want to listen to it okay! Actually I am not really a big fan of these kinds of music players but well..it is quite cool! Really! There are tons of music that I like (not like imeem) that I can find on this website! Yup. Haha..Just to warn you, the playlist is MIXED!!!! Mostly Chet Baker, some club music and some quiet rock. Haha..Suit my mood. 

Well, hope you don't find the player irritating!

Updates:

Hmm....there are 3 weeks more to exam. 

I just killed a cough (Remedy - If your cough is a cold cough like mine (meaning...eh no phlegm except at night when you cough like crazy, no voice change), drink lots of water!!!, drink ginger water!!! (it really really helped my cough), see the doctor. Haha..get well soon!!).

I miss shopping.

I have no money.

I'll be going to watch the Oasis concert with my sister!!! :D

I'm really living the frugal life recently. Sigh....

I MISS HOME......didn't realize it until I went home on saturday. SIGH....

OH!!! I completed 2 omc videos!!!! 

I will update the links when I finish uploading the videos to youtube! :)

Alright! Update next time! (OH yeah! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERJIE!!!)

Whatever's left

I must be lacking something in me. I know I am self-centered. But not all the time. I try to control myself. At least recently I do. Haha..


Perhaps things can't be changed between us anymore..anything that comes will only make it worse, not better or stronger. Because..I still don't really know what I want and...I feel that I have done my best till this date..


I feel that I have constantly tried different ways to handle situations and tried to change a little..maybe it is not enough..maybe I just want a little recognition. Just from ... I know I am self-centered..but I also know I need to be praised just by ...


People always wish for things they don't have. This is what makes human flawed..they can try to be satisfied..but try as they can, there will always be that little voice that says, "What if..."


I need to pick up something new man..just to take my mind off things.